PLS JUST GIVE ME A BREAK

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hey lappy.

im pissed. i cant believe im actually feeling so mad right now. anyway,thank God my recital went well(: i mean,overall. my friends are truely awesome. they actually went down to support me. thank u shaoxuan,jiaen,yorklyn,my cousins,family,plus church peeps! a big thank you to u guys for being there to just watch me sing(:

so...i took a break from netball and focused on my vocals after friday`s training. netball is too draining...mentally and physically. i dont want it to become bad.. i cant allow it to turn out bad in the end. cant. it`s starting to rule me. netball is soon gonna be my life. and im kinda afraid yet...happy about it? i dunno. im in a very confused state right now. too many things going on at the same time. i feel like breaking down,but i cant. cos if i do,i would be too selfish. all the way elisa. u need to stand strong and keep perservering. do not ever let anything u love slip off. keep pressing on. u`re doing great(: it`s a learning process. everyone has to get through it sooner or later. i love you(:

thank God. im feeling better now(: thank you lappy. u`ve been an awesome diary. good night my dearies.


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TIRED.

hey tissue paper.

thank you for being there for me when i need to blow my nose. i love you. i thought today would be a good day..o well, doesnt matter..i dont care anymore. dunno why i am i less excited to meet u now a days..maybe bcos if i get too excited for it,i may be disappointed again. u have no idea how long ive waited for this day... too long.

thank goodness i have my team mates and my sister to entertain me(; im so thankful for them. they are the ones that makes netball interesting and happening.the game is made more interesting and fun with them. love them so much. anyway,i gotta say that im extremely proud of shirlenetoh. she got the best midfielder for today`s MGS match. she has been an awesome player..however,she`s lack of confidence. she needs to stop competing with...haha and start playing for herself. she should be driven by her passion instead. hope she gets it...or else she would just be making life difficult for herself. All the Best cry baby!

i think netball is starting to rule my life.i really hope i wont die off too soon:/ i love that sport so much that i do not ever wanna feel tired of it.*finger cross* i would be so disappointed with myself if it happens): anyway,thank God for holding my limbs together! i pray that it will keep intact all the way,and never ever detatch again. i love you heavenly Father.(:

okay,i think im mentally too tired to continue already..gotta go relax my brain. good night tissue paper. im too tired.


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LOVE MY IDIOTS.

hello blog.


you have been discovered. not only to one shirlenetoh,but to 7 other idiots.blogger user is sorry.i will help u take revenge on those that laughed at you. WARNING to shirlenetoh-build ur grave yard soon, bcos you revealed blog.

so anyway,i was on the bus home after a tired friendly ,when i recieved 8 texts on my phone. suddenly. at first i tot that my phone went crazy again,but, also became a little happy bcos I THOUGHT that many ppl wants to talk to me.but, who knows...all 8 texts came from idiots that made me look worst than them, in the end. bcos i began to laugh to my phone! thanks fellow idiots! blog may catch u all one by one,and bit ur buttocks tonight.(anyway,come for the recital at art museum on the 7nov,4pm-6pm)i love you idiots ,anyway(:

okay.enough on idiots.i had a friendly in the morning,and i failed terribly as a C. felt so useless after the first quater...it has been so long since i felt like that again.it has to be my stamina..i have to talk to elisa..elisa lim shi en,u need to have more discipline and go for regular runs. u need it, in order to kick HER sister`s ass. to show HER that u are nobody to play with. head up,cheers. so, i became very emotional.all i felt was disappointment,from coach and my team mates. then i began talking to somebody. my best-est friend,which is also a complete asshole,elisa. she helped to sort my thoughts out and pulled me up(emotionally) to become courageous again.love her(:

i feel like eating cheesecake.

RANDOM.anyway,it`s my grandpa`s birthday today. happy birthday ah gong. love you when u dont become crazy(:u`ve loved the three of us(elisa,alicia,dara)since we were little. we were always ur priority until the day,that little one came out. but it`s okay,we understand that she needs u more,since her parents are not good enough for her. we love you ah gong,God bless you.

i got my cheesecake! and i need to relax before i go for dinner with my family to celebrate ah gong`s birthday.so,im gonna stop here. i miss You):ill wait for You`s exams to end. love you. byebye blog! byebye idiots! byebye elisa!


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hello princess.

you look good today,in that very black dress and that neatly pinned hair. i guess today was quite a messed up day for you,could feel that u didnt plan today very well. poor princess, if u werent sick,u would have went for training and tuition,and today wouldnt be so screwed. o well,but im quite sure u still enjoyed today. thanks hero,u made princess feel better later,though things were terrible in the morning.she`s sorry):

so,it was at 9am when princess felt like playing pool even before doing any other things.so she searched the net ,hoping to find somewhere with cheap rates. unfortunately, as she continue her search,the feel of wanting to play pool slowly became nothing.then, she decided to cut a pear to eat, bcos queen says that pear may help kill the bacteria in her body, so that she wont need to miss anymore trainings. bcos, missing trainings makes her feel like she is losing out! also,she felt like she has disappointed coach ,everytime she misses a training.anyway,such a competitive princess...it`s not gonna be healthy for her. gotta help her change her motivations towards trainings.

7.30pm came. wedding time.which also meant, dinner time(: i have no idea why princess was so hungry,but she was awaiting for the food to be served when she stepped into the restaurant.the food was tasty,she felt so satisfied after everything has been served.sadly,it felt more like a formal dinner than a wedding ,to princess. she felt a litttleeeeee guilty when she left the place:/ princess is sorry,bride and bride groom.happy marriage!

okayokay,i know u`re tired already.good night princess.good night to myself too(: sweet dreams hero. iloveyou.




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THE DAY BEFORE TOMORROW

good evening to myself,

so i was in church 2/3 of the day. was so terrified by my own`s voice when i had to go `high`): o well,i feel uncomfortable everytime i have to serve with ivan..cos i never get to sing `naturally`. anyway,back to today,it was...disappointing and digusting! no idea why i reacted like a spoilt brat. pathetic. but thank God for level seven. my best buddy when im in bukit timah shopping centre. loveyoubabyseven.

then,it was dancing time! i booked b2 to do the christmas dance..but we ended up dancing to random songs. it was...quite fun:) so,we decided to go to nan hua to play freeze and melt with the cdans ppl.but unfortunately,we couldnt find the gate in to the school,so we ended up walking back to clementi again. i felt like i was not wanted anymore! in the freeze and melt game. we had so much fun the last time! but i guess no body rmbed about it. except for elisa. so anyway,thanks alicia,dara and herman.

it was time for dinner already. took a bus to henderson for dinner with my parents and bobby(rayson). we talked about past years youth camps and became excited, for the upcoming one.suddenly. all of a sudden. hope it wont be too bad. God bless 2010`s jael youth camp.Amen.

okay,so i have training tomorrow again. let`s pray that elisa wont get too tired,so that she wont look so cui on court. i want court work,it`s challenging and fun. it makes elisa feels like a hero,cos her brain only works well when it comes to court work,instead of fitness.

ohnohno,alicia is complaining about me already): im sorry alicialimshiyun. i will return the comp to u now. good bye myself,and have a good sleep.


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AEROPLANE

I NEED TO FLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!
TO HAVE FUN.

I NEED TO FLY AWAY ALONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
TO DO ANYTHING I WANT TO.

I NEED TO FLY AWAY ALONE TO AMERICAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
TO ESCAPE FROM EVERY DUTY.

I NEED TO FLY AWAY ALONE TO AMERICA TO SHOPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!
TO FEEL FREE.

I NEED TO FLY AWAY ALONE TO AMERICA TO SHOP AND TO MISS EVERYBODYY!
TO NOT TAKE ANYONE FOR GRANTED.

I NEED TO FLY AWAY ALONE TO AMERICA TO SHOP AND TO MISS EVERYBODY NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!
TO NOT BE RETARDED ANYMORE.

HAHHAHAHA! whoo this is so fun! alright,im too bored. not that i dont have anything to work on right now,bcos i have too many,i do not know where to start from!

it`s indian`s day tmr. but i still gonna train ,bcos im feeling insecure of my position in the team! paranoid bastard. i knoww i am.

oh and i went to a learning and counselling centre yesterday. my mum..plus my dad ,are very worried for my 2011.O levels.so they decided to send me there to check if i have any learning disabilities or not,since i dint do very well for both my sciences plus it`s my second time doing it already,so why couldnt i get it right. and guess what the `doctor` said. he said that i have no disalilities,but my EQ is so high that it becomes not very good,bcos then i would be too critical and judgemental.which then he suggested that before i make any critical remark,i should count to five silently before giving my precious comments(:and he told me that if i accidentally offended anyone,i could still safe it by confronting and apologize before it gets worse.

so,what im gonna do here right now,is to apologize to my dearest friend(pehxinxuan) for `judging` her and making fun/sarcastic remarks about her,and only realises that i offended her after i tell her off. sooorrry babe:/ hope u`ll get to see this anyway. also,to anybody that i`ve offended,IM SORRY! elisa is really sorry!

so anyway,i need to go to sleep already.good bye.good night.sweet dreams.




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